i have been staring at the screen now for ages not able to write again!
being naughty with mr sd xxxx
i just wanted to write down my thoughts the past weekend,,,
before i told him i love him,,,
it makes me laugh now when i think about it,,,
silly cow lol
i couldnt eat,or sleep or do anything right actually ,,,
days coming and going in a blur...
but what tops the rest was,,,the night i was travelling to meet friends last saturday night...
i was waiting for the train on the platform...
a group of people was walking past me and they were a mix of women and men..
they were all dressed up for the halloween...but the men the way they were dressed i found it really hilarious!!!!
i was sat there,and i couldnt stop myself giggling...
in the middle of the group,this guy looked at me,and smiled....i was stunned ...
he held his smile and i couldnt believe it,i was seeing this smile that doesnt belong to him!!!
i quickly looked away but i saw in his eye confusion..but it was his smile that made me look away...
i was seeing things...!!!i was seeing his smile on someone else,that cant be right!!!
train arrived,went in the carriage,i was standing as the train was full of ghouls and zombies!!
halfway where the trains destination,i looked across all the people standing and the guy i saw on the
platform was looking straight at me,smiling that smile!!!!!
i didnt know what to do,so i looked down the floor...
piccadilly was here,doors opened a lot of people got out,and the guy was there walking with his friends looking at me smiling and nodded...
bizarre...
that smile dont belong to him...
so i was seeing things,lol.
this needs to be sorted,,,
there were days i was unfocused,blank even,
i couldnt understand why,was it me or this situation??
get a grip,,,
someone commented to me,,, i wont say who,,,
'hello,you are away with the fairies...'
ofcourse,i was!!!
how is it possible for a person to fully occupy your mind?
the intensity of it..
he got me...
he caught me unaware...
he is making me his...
how long will it take before i finally say it,,it didnt take long...
because i told him...
will i be free from this madness??
it still remains to be seen xxxxx
